"I shall be gone and live or stay and die."
(Shakespeare)




Finally after a couple of years I hold the precious thing in my hand - the ticket to Nepal - half of the major problems are overcome - money -time-and selfassurance that I can really do it . Now its fix - 31.10-15.01 - 2 and a half month of -- I dont know what will happen . . . but finally i'm back to the adventures me - . . .
Why does the decision to leave for a while became suddenly so difficult ?
Why did I forget the feeling of - the whole world lays in my hands?
Why do I start to worry about so many things , things that I defined as @ not to worry @ long time ago ?

---- Is it the symptom of getting old - of starting to be part of society ?

OLD ??!! - yes I know people just tell me that 24 is not old - but hey who decides what old is anyway ... It's not the age that worries me its the fact that everyone around you expects you to be something at a certain stage in life ... well I have the impression I'm not there yet ... and do I really want to go there ?

....what if I decide to leave free and spontanious now ... and regrett it in a couple of years ? ...
once someone very precious told me - hey petra wake up --- things and people change around you - you need to grow up --
--this was one of the most painfull words I had to listen to in long time -- I felt small - naive and insignificant ....
But hey - is it really so important - whats so bad about creating a perfect world in your head - trying to keep holding on to the things we love /...
...
so now I decided I will hold on to it - will keep on dreaming my own world ...in NEPAL !!!
Everyone who does not agree - please step forward and complain --

Till then :


There's a voice that keeps on calling me,
Down the road is where I'll always be,
Every stop I make, I'll make a new friendCan't stay for long, just turn around and I'm gone again.
Maybe tomorrow, I'll wana settle down,
Until tomorrow, I'll just keep moving on.